Its not some happy ever after fairy tale. You wont find us skipping away into the sunset pushing a baby carriage.
I didn't win.
Win what? Everything. Anything. Nothing. I lost it all. Lost him. Mostly I lost me. Because who I am now I don't recognise. I don't know how to get back to who I was, or even if I want to. I hope I've learnt a lesson. Would be nice if you've learned one too. That together we could say that it was all worth it. That it wont happen again. That it was a lesson well learned.
I feel as if I've thrown my heart away. Was too careless.
And every time i think of him and her together it breaks all over again. The best moments chase through my my mind, followed by the worse.
I wonder what I could have done differently. Should have done differently.
Thats the funny thing about the end. It makes you look back instead of forwards. It would be nice to say I got caught, that we got caught. That I chose him and he chose me.
And I wonder if I just wasn't enough.
He broke my heart.
Then again, I did too.
Wednesday, 11 September 2013
22: The truth is incontrovertible. Malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end, there it is.
Posted by Kristina at 15:15